I can do nothing against it...

There is nothing I can say to defend myself....
NOTHING!!!
It was Friday, we just came back from dinner, today the teens are having a meeting like every other Fridays, I was the only one there whose parents won't let me go...
I asked rather politely whether I can go for tonight's meeting or not, my mum says if there is time then she'll let me go.
We were coming back the Curve and by the time we reach Puchong, it was 9:53 it was exactly at that time when we reach the flyover bridge in front of Giant.
I asked again, in case she forgot, to fetch me to teens meeting. She said rather rudely, "no lah, so late already go for what?"
And my dad pipes in and say, "No! Don't let her go, it's late already and she needs rest."
I was so pissed and disappointed and on the verge of angry tears. I had to keep my cool, I had no choice, or they'll suspect something is wrong... I can't let them know...
I could do nothing against it... I can do nothing about it... Nobody can help me.... Accept for god... But nothing was done... I tried praying that I'll reach there in time for the meeting, it worked, but I didn't forsee this was gonna happen....
I went back home and had discovered at least someone cares.... Yes, you. You know who you are :) Thank you for caring, "if you know what I mean" (;
I was happy. So happy to see that someone cares... :') so very happy.... :)
And I'm sorry for not coming... I tried my best, but arguing with my parents is not gonna happen.. I'll lose.. I'm sorry... :'(

Insulting

Guess what will a son from a racist family will say to his sister?
"Are you a racist?"
That's what he said to me, and you know how insulting that is when I have a boyfriend who is an Indian????????
IT IS VERY INSULTING!!!
And when I screamed at him my answer, he said "I was only joking...geez what's wrong with you?"
WHAT'S THE MATTER WITH ME???
YOU DARE ASK WHAT IS THE MATTER WITH ME?!?!?!
YOU HAVE JUST FISHING INSULTED ME AND MY BOYFRIEND!!!!
And then there's another member in the household, she asked me yesterday to go out in the slight rain to look for the owner of a rooster who had attacked our chicken, and guess what time it is? IT'S SEVEN THIRTY IN THE EVENING WOMAN!!! AND YOU EXPECT ME TO SEARCH FOR A CHICKEN AT THIS TIME?!
You're just crazy.
And then there's another who is not satisfied with how the way the meat is cut!!! How stupid is that?!?!
Well, I tell you this, if you are not satisfied the way how your meat is cut, why don't you give a hand to the kitchen?!?!?!
Some people are just so hard to please...
And only some stupid people will ask his sister whether she's a racist or not.
OBVIOUSLY I'M NOT A RACIST!!
I'm dating an indian for goodness sake!!
How could I be a racist when I love people or who they are??

Throwing a fit

Can you believe it or not? I've never thrown a fit, either verbally or emotionally... XD
Some people would have at least did it once or twice already in their lives, but I didn't... Not even once..
Why? I was taught to never show my emotions to people easily... That's why I'm also known as the quiet girl... And sometimes, being silent is not golden.. People will start to call you a freak...
I've seen many people throw a fit... It's scary... I don't know how will I be able to do that...
Maybe I will do that one day.. Just not now...
I wish I can throw a fit... Then maybe I could get back what I've lost...
Well.. That's a wrong thing to do that's for sure..
I can't imagine myself throwing a fit or even hyperventilating...
I mean, what's the point of throwing a fit??
You get hypertension, hot temper, and blood circulating too fast in your head that you'll get dizzy.
If you punched a wall or something just to get your anger out, what's the point?
All you'll get is a red fist!
Why not soothe the soul with some good words? :)

Plain irritating...

Hey, I get your point that you were trying to insult him, but there's no need to remind me that what I'm doing now is "WRONG".
I know that you are just plain mean though you say you don't mean it, I get your point woman..
Is it a crime in loving someone other than my own race now???
Though I don't study law, but I think there is no such law on you can't marry a person different than you are.
Isn't marrying people different than me is the point of being different in this world?
You are just plain selfish, keeping me all to yourselves and not sharing me with the world!!
Sure, you can give me everything you want to keep me inside...everything that I asked to keep me busy from communicating to the world..
So what if I talked to him privately? It's not like we are planning to have sex in a hotel isn't it??
Something's are just not meant to be heard to other people.
I have grown up! I'm not a kid anymore!! I'm 16 for goodness sake!!
Why can't yOu just leave me to do my own things like a mature lady?!

Locked up...
Elaine

Endless calls...

Ringing ringing baby,
My phone is ringing..
Why aren't I pickin it up?
Someone's not there to do it, baby..
Whole night long, you've been calling...

Sometimes, words cone popping out into my mind at random times...
I get inspired when I see somethings....
For example, I read some song lyrics, then I can write out a poem story out from it, I don't know how.. But I do..

It's been happening quite frequent now these days....
I space out a lot for a lot of reasons....
One reason for example... I think a lot...
Before I get any personal..
I think I'll stop from here...

Inspired,
Elaine

Colors of the world

Hey, let me ask you this question, aren't we all human beings?
We, as being the same and EQUAL human beings...
We have arms, legs, body, heart, lungs, nose, eyes, ears, fingers, toes, hand, ad mouth and etc etc.... I'm sure mOst of us have it.
So what's the difference if they are black or brown??
That doesn't change who they are.
That doesn't change who they are on the inside.
That doesn't change the way we all speak.
That doesn't change the way they live.
That doesn't change the way they feel.
AND THAT DOESN'T CHANGE THE WAY THEY LOOK!!!
So what if they are black or brown?!?!
They are still human beings!! SAME AS WHITE PEOPLE!!
They breathe the same air as us!!
They eat the same things as us!!
They use the same language we speak!!
So what if they are slightly tanned?!?!?!
I'm sure THAT doesn't change the way they feel, think, speak, eat, or live...
They are still the same as us!! People!!
So what if their history are bad??
So what if their ancestors were once servants for our ancestors???
THAT doesn't change who they ARE does it??
THE PAST IS THE PAST PEOPLE!! This is the NEW GENERATION I'm speaking about!!!
Not the history or their "tainted" lives!!
I don't see the way you people see it.
I don't mind they way they look.
As long as they are human beings!!
Their past history is nothing, compare to the history NOW!!
Everyone has a different scent! I can prove it! How do you think do dogs differs cate their own masters and enemies? Dogs can't see Color, it's their masters and enemies scent!
If you say other people smell bad, do you think you smell that good??
NO!!
Everyone has their own unique scent and habits and characteristics.
The world isn't made just for White people to live in, it's for the blacks and the whites!!
The world is made for God's children! Not just you in the world!
Selfishness is a sin...
We have different identities to differs cate ourselves...
I don't see a problem in living the same world, same country, same land as they are living.
That's what the quote 1Malaysia says right? :)
One world, one country, one race(human beings, not blacks or whites, but human beings).
































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Anger..

It solves nothing at all..
Anger, solves nothing AT ALL!!
The more a person is angry, the angry words will only add fire to it...
Why can't the world be forgiving...
If we all are willing to forgive.. There wouldn't be war... There wouldn't be arguments.. There wouldn't be heartbreaks too.. At all..
Forgiveness..
Surely it is not something easy to forgive when someone forces you to separate your loved ones..
Technically.. Everyone hates that...
If I take your most favourite possession away, and break it, surely you won't forgive me..
So, if someone breaks my loved one's heart, he or she WILL NOT BE FORGIVEN TILL THE DEPTHS OF YOUR GRAVES....
no matter who you are...