Lead us not into temptation but deliver us from the Evil One...

Speak nay with thy mouth if thou hath nothing good to say, or thine own words pierce through hearts like a thousand needles...

Thou wilt regret and suffer in thine depression of a lost dear one, it is thine own fault and thou shalt suffer for it...

Sin thou shalt not commit for thine own good...

For the Father of Heavens shalt judge upon thine own words and on thine own deeds...

Repent! Oh children of God, and admit that thou hath sinned down to the very drop of blood thine has in thine own flesh...

Let ye be cleansed and renewed by the Spirit and serve thine Father with renewed mind and soul..

And let thine own renewed flesh be the temple for the Holy Spirit...

Wasted... All of it...

It's already nearly the end of June... Time really flies... And then soon we'll go to college and maybe we won't see each other again...
If only we were given eternal time...
If only we were given chances...
If only... If only...
These wishes are only asked by mere selfish humans...
They regret in nearly everything they do...
Yes, I'm only a mere selfish human being, and I assume you are too...
No one is perfect for everyone has sinned...
I'm not perfect either, neither are you...
Adults regret when they are old and weary... They regretted what they did in the past and what they did not do in the future...
Did I not say all humans are selfish?
They wanted their own generation to suffer and regret like how they did now.
I wonder if they had ever thought about our feelings...
Chances, challenges and opportunities are always limited to me...
I'm limited by mere selfish human beings...

Cruelty or over-protectiveness??
Elaine

Beloved's Symphony...

Jonathan Thomas Kuruvilla, age 16, awesome boyfriend, talented man...


We are of the same age...studying in the same school...going to the same tuition...going out for school trips together...going out for a party treat together....and going to church together.... That's quite a lot of together isn't it??? XD


We, like most couples do... They fight, they quarrel, they share sad moments together, they help each other up when they fall down, they will be side by side no matter what happens, they go through tough and sad problems together, encourage each other, when the other wears out, the other will help hold out, a shoulder and a listening ear would be given to each other.... and many other things....


Many Good and Bad Memories have passed us during our relationship times....
Bad ones are really heart-breaking moments....Almost to tears....Broke us up... And hurt both of us, not just you or me...
Then, the Good ones are really enjoyable, happy, funny, humorous, and never-want-to-forget-moments... and because there's still Good memories left... we are still together...
I can tell you this...Balancing the Good one over Bad memories is hard.... and keeping our hearts together as one is even harder... Our hearts are sometimes so fragile that I'm afraid it'll break to just touch them...  


Sometimes... I'm afraid that all the Good memories will disappear inside your heart and forget about me... When you are angry, I just don't know how... But I felt yr anger pierce into me too.... And at that time you were so so fragile... And it's hard to talk to you when you are angry.... But I'll try hard to improve on it....


But anyways, like you said, the past is the past...
I'm going to write this post just for you and the about the piano which you played so grandly to me...
Today in the hall, though it's filled with all the kids voices, it felt as tough there's only the two of us, alone, your hands slid across the keys effortlessly, you bit your lips in concentration as you play the keys, I look on behind the keyboard.... 
I was speechless to see a guy who's mine and who was so amazing, smart, talented, and God blessed created all for me? There may be other people out there hungry for him, he's so precious to me, I don't want to lose him, I love him to much...


The sound of the notes soothing, you were playing my favorite song, I'm feeling calm and happy, you may not know, but now you know, sometimes, my heart cries to hear you playing more and longer... I wish I could ask you to play again and again... as long as time allows....


You are Beloved's Symphony, you can make it sound so much better, so so so much better.... making a simple song sound so grand. You really are blessed with God's gift... 


I, Symphony Lockheart, your Symphony Listener, is really blessed to be with you, my love overflowing for you in my heart when you are with me... Trust me, I am BLESSED to have a GUY LIKE YOU.

I pray and hope the day that would separate us forever would not come....


Elaine, 16, Jonathan's girlfriend, a VERY blessed and happy girl. (:


You mean so so much to me, trust me,
Elaine 

Why us??

Just two days ago...Jonathan and I got into trouble...

Not a BIG trouble... but we got into trouble cause of  that !$@$&!#@ brother of mine... he just can't mind his freaking business...

Jonathan got upset...I don't like it when he gets upset... when i try to talk to him or cheer him up, he ignores me... or walks away... and he keeps all quiet and emo whole day round...

We got separated from our seats again...yeap, we got separated THREE times alrdy.... but in the end we got back together again... The power of love..XD

But this time...I'm not sure whether we will be seated back together again...I really hope we do... I can't really concentrate on anything without him... I feel so empty behind me....like a BIG gap with wind blowing from behind...you get the feeling... 

Even Alicia, my friend says my face looks so comical when Jonathan here, she say I looked like this when he comes through the door " :D" then when he turns to the classroom, she says my face go " : / " and then she say when I see her I'll be like " XD (waving a hi)" 

Like I said before..I'm weird.. /:

I can't believe till now... there's a guy who would want me in his life... but yet he's in my life, I'm grateful and happy for it =) You can never feel how awesome I felt when I'm with him... and it's too complicated to explain so don't get your hopes up... XD

Just hope he won't forget to do his duty again... he forgot about it three times already... >__<'''

Partially...It's my fault.... XD

I love you =) if you know who you are...XD

Elaine :)

It's a Sunday morning... :)

I didn't go to church today... Was tired after two straight days of waking up at 6.15 in the morning...so I slept in late...
Yesterday I learned more about god from somebody I know in my life :) he answered a lot of my questions when, as a Christian, I have no answers and faith to god... But everyone can learn to have faith in Him... So I'm learning right now...(:
He's a good example of a Godly christian... And he LOVES God a lot... And puts Him first in everything... Well, maybe... XD but overall, I love God too.. But maybe not as much as He did to me... :) tats what I learned...
And honestly... This is the first year I'm learning soo much about God.. And I'm going to church more now... All thanks to someone in my school who directed me back to God :)

Thank you,
Sincerely,
Elaine :)