Scolded.

I got scolded twice within 4 hours.
Scolded for stupid things...
Scolded for doing a right thing...
Scolded for a doing a kind thing...
I'm so sad today...
:'(
Firstly I got scolded by being too kind...
My family and I were walking back from the mall. One car was following us to our parking. The couple wanted to park our space. We got lost for a moment and found our car at the opposite side. I motioned the car to go to the other side. And then my mum got so pissed she yank the trolley and hit against both car side mirrors... I tried to stop her and she started scolding me for being so slow....
I was.. Only trying to be kind...
And I got scolded all the way out for 10 minutes... Saying things that I'll get kidnapped if I stop to give directions to strangers and all those crap....
Why are they being so.... Ugh...
Nvm.... They are just over protective that's all... That's all.... They'll change...
One day...
Then I got scolded for not being caring for my mum cause my church is having an event I said I would go help since last month...
My dad scolded this time kept saying I'm so inconsiderate and ignorant about my mum. She's going for a surgery. I'm not saying what surgery. But its not important. My dad said he never stopped me from going to church.
I wanted to scream at him saying " YEA SURE YOU DIDN'T STOP ME!!!! EVERYTIME I WANTED TO GO TO CHURCH ON FRIDAYS, WHO WAS THE ONE WHO STOPPED ME FROM GOING HUH?!?!?!?!"
But no. I kept quiet.. Just quiet... Silently crying.... Crying cause my heart hurts so much...
My dad kept scolding for 20 minutes.
Kept saying the same thing. Saying What's so great about the event, the event is nothing compared to my mum.
It is a church event.. I told him, I told them I would go and help on that day...
And he cuts in and say, "Ei it's your mum here going for surgery. Your event is not so important"
I'm so sad...
I'm so sad...
So so sad....
I'm still hurting inside.....
How can he say those words... About my church.. It's not like he's a christian.
God... God... God... Please... Take away my sadness... Take away my tears.... God....
I'm so sad....
I wish... I just wish there would be someone out there... Who could endure with me my sadness of the past.....
Someone.. Who can just hug me and just let me cry all my sadness out....
I just wanna let go of the tears....