Guys growing up

Dear buddy,

Now I understand when you told me that you'd have fun watching boys grow up.
And you left me to find it out myself.
That was two years before.
But now I realised what you had meant.

Sincerely.

Ridiculous reality shows

Just today, I've only really sat down to watch a reality show.
It was a Chinese programme.
It was the last day of Chinese new year celebration so I was invited to it.
I can't believe what they are showing to society these days.
They actually showed a sort of dating show for random guys.
All the girls are like standing behind a pulpit with a red button in front of them.
And they can press the button if they don't find any interests in that guy or if they detest a feature of the guy.
Chinese girls these days are so... Despicable.

Terrifyingly despicable.
There was this one Canadian guy.
Who's real handsome for girls to fall for.
But oh no, they have so many things against it.
There were more than 20 girls there.
And some gave the most ridiculous reason for rejecting the the guy by pressing the button.
Examples. They showed a short clip about the guy. And when the girls rejected. They were questioned.
They answered a) because his chest and arms are so hairy, I don't love it.
b) his pets are allowed to climb all over him and they shed hairs.
c) because he's too tall, I want a 180" tall guy not a 178"
d) because he's to muscular, and because I like skinnier guys so I can lie my head on

OHMIGOSH!
The way I hear them speak in Chinese about those absolutely ridiculous reasons and rejecting that Canadian guy because of his outlook!!! Really really horrible.
And they showed it on national TV!!!!
how humiliating!
I have found a new reason to never watched any movies except for educational channels like animal planet :)

Useless programs like those realities show should never be viewed on tv.
Teaching young ladies to reject the guy because he was short by 2cm. Ridiculous!

Fish em b*tches

These three girls were my classmates.
The girl behind them is my best friend.
And this was their conversation on instagram.
I don't bother to blacken their faces.
But I want you three Asians to know.
That she is 100 times prettier inside and out than than you mean, vain, Asian girls.
No matter how pretty you girls think you are. Inside your heart is not pretty.
Just because she is Indian. Doesn't mean she is what your vain eyes see.
She's smarter than you guys.
She's graduating from her college.
And you know what?
All those years.
And you girls don't change.
I hope one day some guy will look at you and realize what you really are inside to people whom you look down on.
You girls are such bullies.
But no punishment was ever made cause we tolerate you. And I tolerated you girls.
You girls never helped to clean up the class and complained that I arranged the things on your tables.
You know what I got your class in the end????
WE GOT FIRST PRIZE FOR CLASS CLEANLINESS BECAUSE OF ME.
And you Said just before break that no matter what I do we won't get a prize.
Well, fish that.
You girls only know to go to the toilet every time and pretty yourself up.
And who the heck camwhores in toilets?

My best friend was blessed Because she wasn't at all vain, selfish, unkind. She works hard for her own results and she achieved them. She doesn't eat well nowadays cause she has to take care of her mum and she has to finish her course for college.
She lost a lot of weight.
I heard that you girls changed your attitudes. But from what I see now, you girls didn't change at all.

If I ever see you again.
I'll make sure to teach you girls a lesson on laughing at my friends.

A new year <3

A year is gonna end soon.
I'm still doing the same old stuff.
Staying home, locked up, doing work, alone.
Not everybody does that.
Most of them are probably strutting around malls and drinking beer and waiting for countdown.
No I don't do that.
I've been doing the same things all my life.
Nobody is trying to change that of Me.
If that somebody is here.
I'm alone.
At least I have Facebook. (:

There are four situations which I want to happen today.
But no it's not gonna happen.

If I was in Russia.
I'll find my best buddy. Drag him out into the cold winter. We'll have fun together all day long. I'll go sightseeing with him. Go at a bar and just hang out, waiting for countdown, admiring the fireworks, and just forget about reality. Just the two of us.
But it's not gonna happen.

If I was with my best friend.
I would dress her up and bring her to a bar and have fun dancing together. We would go window shopping all day long, we would go to anime shops and just laugh at their ridiculous stocks.We'll hang around and talk a lot about things that happened to us throughtout the year. We would cosplay at night as Kagamine twins and go to KL for an amazing countdown. Taking pictures. Just the two of us.
But that's not gonna happen.

If I was with my real boyfriend.
I would call him in the morning. Wish him a really nice day, and appear on his doorstep ready to spend the while day with him, I'll call his workplace and tell his boss he won't be coming today. I'll walk with him in the mall, just laughing and talking, eating lunch and being funny, taking special moments together. And wait for night to fall. And then we go to a bar and dance together and have fun. We'll wait for countdown together, and we'll hug and kiss under the fireworks. Takes a picture*. Just the two of us.
But that's not gonna happen.

If I was gonna spend the last day of the year now with my ex.
I'd say, " no, i'm spending the whole day with someone who actually loves me back, and I'm busy making chocolates for him today, so have a happy new year with someone else that does the same to you.
Bye"
This is happening. (;

A week

It's just a week before school starts.
When did the holidays go to?
And Christmas??
A year gone.
I just realized someone just pressed the fast forward button.
I've wasted a year.
It's like I'm still 16...

Dreams

I have this most awesome dream ever :D

I was dreaming about Jonathan XD
Again.
Not all my dreams are about him mind you :O some were fun and exciting XD and some were horror dreams and killing.
But forget about that.

I'm not sure whether this is lucid dreaming.
But I felt him in my dream.
I held his arm to sleep.
It was literally warm.
I can feel his very skin.
His warmth.
His muscles.
It was so soothing.
And very gentle and peaceful.
I melted to sleep for hours later after that.
I couldn't forget it.
Cause it seemed so real.
Like he was there.

Maybe, it was just my guardian angel.
That feels like him.
But it's a really nice dream.
I'm never forgetting that anytime soon.
<3

News.

Everyday.
In every part of the world.
There's more than a thousand people dying.
Some from uncertain reasons.
Some from suicide.
Some from being starved.
Some from being killed. Shot. Burned.
There it is on the news.
Everyday. Everytime I read the papers.
Some one was robbed.
Someone was shot.
Someone was stabbed.
Someone was raped.
Someone had suicide.
They are all dying.
Some are innocent.
There is bloodshed everyday. No doubt.
They kill.
Without mercy.
For themselves to have a better life living on someone else's money.
it's devastating how sinful the human rave has become.
It's just sad...
Where did the superheroes go?
The good ones that saves, where are they? /:

Live for tomorrow.
Live for God.
Faith. Trust. Goodness. Righteous. Justice
I like the good guys.
They always live :)