Being an artist or a vet?

Being an artist is not easy

Especially if it is going to be your job 

It is difficult for some reputable company to be able to find you unless you show yourself and be able to stand out from others..

For this you will need tremendous luck.

Or even fame to start off. 

Being an artist won't pay you much unless you are famous from the start..

Being an artist nowadays is very competitive especially when artists are popping out of nowhere everywhere.

Almost everybody is doing arts..

Or some form of arts.

It's going to be difficult if you are not best of the best..

I wish I could take arts..

Since little my dream was to be able to draw and be an artist 24/7.

Soon the dream was shattered when my parents asks me to take on a stable job instead of a free lance artist..

I know I will do well in art..

A few people I know in reputable companies want me..

But unfortunately I'm not taking Arts..

I'm taking a science course..

Which is what my parents want...

My initial path was to go to Japan..

But now..

The path have diverted to England..

Sad ain't it?

I feel kinda sad myself.

I know I won't do much arts in science course..

Eventhough my mum kept saying I could draw as a hobby even though I take up vet sciences..

All that, I know, is bullshit.

Because a friend of mine doesn't even have time to sleep..

I know, what she said was fake...

But I know she would be dissapointed in me if I didn't go to sciences..

Perhaps I should go and stay in a forest with the tigers and have a tiger cub of my own..

And study forestry..

I hate this so much..

I hate those exams..

I hate those liars..

I hate it I hate it I hate it..

I even found myself a job by being an artist to draw for a colouring book for a church...

And my mum doesn't even know about it. 

Foolish words

You spoke to me as if I was a stupid little girl that had just came of age.

You spoke to me as if I was a crazy, naive little girl who is really horny and can't wait to sleep with guys in college. 

You spoke to me as if I was foolish enough to get pregnant and abandon all my studies. 

You spoke to me as if I was irresponsible enough to come back and show my face to you if I ever got pregnant without getting married yet. 

You spoke to me as if I was still your baby girl 15 years ago.

You think I never grew up? 

I was not the once stupid girl who got caught falling in love with someone I shouldn't have. 

You looked at me as if you were talking to a rebellious child who brought difficult problems upon the family. 

I do envy the others who have such immense love for their parents...

Because I have never felt that way...

You have two different faces until it's so difficult to talk to you. In a blink you can turn from loving to terrifying. 

I hate you for that. 

Because I can never really predict when you can be like that.

I wished you change. And call me by my name instead of "baby".

You scolded me when I told you to change. 

It's alright, I'll be gone soon and I won't be hearing that from your mouth anymore. 

Just because there are foolish teenagers out there doing stupid things, doesn't mean I am gullible enough to do what they are doing. 

Ridiculous guy.

So only until yesterday you start to see me the first time of the year only you send me the message??? 

Was it because my outlook appeal to you? 

Or because you know how I would calmly react to this? 

Screw you. 

Did it really took you TWO YEARS to realize all the while you were HURTING ME??? 

No wait. You DID REALIZE it but you just didn't want to talk to me. 

I don't know what made you do that or what. 

All I can see with my own eyes is that you DELIBERATELY AVOIDED me. 

So you actually knew I was hurt but you didn't want to have anything to do with me. You remembered but never bothered. I'm just so sick of it already. 

Great. 

So now I'm going to ignore that message and reply some other day. 

I was the girl whom you hurt so much but could give that whole hearted smile to you. Is it because of that you avoided my eye contact? 

You coward. You can't even ask me a question properly without asking your sister to do so for you.

But I'm glad you improved and now had the balls to do so. 

But seriously. This ain't working out. 

Knowing your despicable character for 2 years. I'm outta here. Now I can't imagine living with you forever. 

I really do hope you'll improve in the future. 

Now I had the reply I have waited for more than two years..

My wasted youth all for you. Just gone.

I'm so glad I wished up and improve on everything. I learned tons of things. 

And I was the better girl that you met. 

Thanks for sort of making me do all this. 

I even cosplay now. And I'm in the Chinese News for my art. 

These things I would never had achieved because you didn't supported me in this. 

I know you realized that now, cause your best friends are having a crush on me. 

Oh the irony.

I never intended it to turn out like this. But I can't help improving myself. 

P.S you were my regrets. I'm glad you finally said sorry for the things that you had done. Now I can move on. <3 

It's not something old ladies do

I must say, knowing how to knit does help after all! 

I fetched my brother for swimming classes and I waited there for him, to past the time I brought my knitting there.

The lady who sat beside me asked me where did I bought the materials to knit.

We talked a lot and I realised she stays in puteri 12, just right next door :P

But she doesn't knit, she crochets little dolls. She agreed with me too that the store that we get our stuff from is overpriced..

We talked till she had to leave and a while after that, another lady came up to me with her daughter. She's from Pakistan. And you would never believed it! She's a national swimmer and a representative from Pakistan!!  X3 

Oh my oh my! What luck :) 

She was speaking in her native tongue to her daughter while pointing at me. She asked me. Are you knitting a scarf. And I was like yes do you knit too? She does and she knits lots of scarves for winter. She's been in Malaysia for 4 years now ever since her husband got transferred to a Job here. 

Hahahaha what a day :) 

What a joker

Such a joker he is, but there are times when he doesn't know it's a serious thing to me.

It's been a while and he doesn't know what's happening to me, obviously. 

I can't believe he doesn't take these things seriously or that it's a thing that shouldn't be joked around. 

And when I was taking everything seriously he said it was all a joke to kick up a conversation. •_______• 

And he says "you know I joke around a lot" and blah blah blah. 

=.= 

Joking about these things when you have a girlfriend doesn't make me see you in any way different except that you don't mean your heart to her.

But he doesn't know. 

It's okay. 

Poor boy.

He will soon realize its too late. 

When it comes to this.

It's been awhile now.
There's been some serious thinking.
Over and over again..
I've been thinking about these 2 choices that would change my whole entire life.
But it's not for the bad though.
It's for education.
Once I have taken my last tests.
I would apply for one England's colleges.
And from there, I would proceed on to take on one of the rarest courses taken in their country.
Veterinary sciences.
And be part of the Royal Society of Veterinary Surgeons in England.
It's quite interesting when you think about it. The animals are fascinating. And very captivating.
But no one takes veterinary sciences.
No one.
Business and engineering and law courses are too common.
I had thought of going to America to study to become a physiotherapist.
But humans..
I don't like them.
Yes I love them as human creations.
But though animal has no souls.
But they are part of God's creations too.
I don't know whether it's my calling.
Or it's just God guiding me to this path.
I don't know.
But I know definitely.
I love animals, and I'm going to save them from the threat of mankind.
Well, another 8 years of study for me ~.~
I hope it will all end soon.

It's just so sad.

You know, it's just so sad. To see humanity is losing itself. To see the people believing in foolish lies and seeing them turn against each other.
Even my friends, it's sad to see how hard they tried to go against the government. It's so sad to see them go to the big PKR gathering and stand under the rain just to hear what Anwar has to say. Can't you guys see it?? He has other motives!! FOR HIMSELF!! you young lads have forgotten what he did to the people. Our own people.
Of course what he say was right. Because it was what you guys want to hear. Because what you guys don't want to hear is the Government can't be changed. It's just so sad to see the foolish people gather under one roof to hear what he has to say. And whatever this guy said he must have said exactly what you wanted to hear. You think he moved you? If you think of it that way.
The lies are so easily swallowed by the people, even the adults. The rumors and illogical ideas, like having 30,000 bangladesh to come to vote. NO!! it's a lie!! If it were possible. WHY AREN'T THERE 1000 JUMBO JETS LANDING IN MALAYSIA???? A Boeing can fit 300+ people. The idea is just illogical. My friends, I don't know whether you had read the newspaper. But I saw the truth in the papers while I tried to tell you guys it's all a lie..
I'm not a supporter of any sides. But I'm just happy we all still have rice and food. It's just sad to see these people go against the government when they had fed us.
Don't ever bite the hand that feeds you.